i fucking hate leon kennedy fans. yes, i am including myself in this statement. my overemotional investment in this character has caused me more frustration than like. 90% of my hobbies, including learning how to code. something that's actually pretty difficult to learn(for me anyway), but somehow saying "i like leon kennedy" on the internet seems infinitely harder and more frustrating to deal with... it's actually ridiculous. and honestly, really fucking embarrassing, especially at my age! i hate it! like can i please just have like... a normal, passive attachment to anything? can i be chill about anything. i'm too old to be over passionate and over possessive with a fictional character.

but. my god. some of his "fans" are just. so fucking stupid.

i've been working on my leon shrine lately, something i usually kinda like doing. i get to just... drown myself in resident evil(leon) stuff. fill my brain and focus on a topic i really love. i was thinking about adding a gif of one leon's idle animations from re4r, so i stupidly went looking in his tag on tumblr. rookie mistake, looking in a character's tag, i know. but i thought i'd be safe if i searched for something specific like leon kennedy gif. it usually worked when i was looking for specific gifsets of games and stuff. but of course tumblr's search function is effectively useless at this point in time, so i was subjected to about 200 leon kennedy x reader fics, which. is annoying on the best of days, no offense. but like put that shit under a read more, holy fucking shit.

leon's tag is. a special kind of hell though.

look. i get it. fanfics are fantasy, kinks, not subject to criticism(apparently lol, but i disagree!), not that serious, whatever.

but i really fucking have to wonder. do any of these cunts ACTUALLY like leon s. kennedy??????? because WHY the FUCK are almost ALL of these dogshit reader fics shit like "stepbro leon finally gets you all to himself!", "yandere leon s kennedy", "corrupt cop leon kennedy extorts you for sex!", "leon s kennedy is an abusive drunk husband that beats the hell out of you", "leon s kennedy rapes you!"

HELLLLOOOOO??????????????????????????

did we play the same games??? watch the same cutscenes?????? see the same leon s. kennedy??????????????

look, i know i'm getting emotional and letting my own bias about leon's character show here. but i don't think even in "fantasy" leon would be down to roleplay any of the above shit if he were real. fuck even in his own canon, he wouldn't. even in his Worst iterations, leon has never been an abusive drunk, incest-prone, rapist. i know it's fantasy, but how can you get off to something like that when it's literally not even leon s kennedy's character being written or considered in this kink fantasy atp? like i CAN NOT wrap my head around it.

how is it a sexy character x reader fic when it ceases to be the character. like. i'm sorry. Leon's whole thing is basically that he's an uncorruptable goodie two shoes cop. please be seriousssssssssss wtf do you mean 'corrupt cop leon' like shutttttttt uppp! tbh i think if his partner asked him to choke them he would hesitate. like. he doesn't strike me as a person who would be into rougher/darker kinks just because he would be hesitant/scared to "hurt" his partner even in a kink scenario that his partner was asking for. he's a very "vanilla missionary with eye contact and kissing" type of guy imo lol, but i know that's my own headcanon and that may seem just as absurd to these people as their x reader fics are to me lol.

idk, i'm not into "darker" fics so maybe i just.. don't get it or whatever but. like. i just cannot get over people stripping leon of any shred of his character to make him their weird incest fantasy daddy dom sex bot LOL.

and i even skimmed one out of a morbid curiosity that bordered on self harm bc i knew it would upset me at best and send me into a full blown panic attack at worst and also because it was just. there. not under a read more. for god and everyone to be forced to witness. and i know i can "keep scrolling" or whatever these profiction dipshits like to tell us supposed quaker pilgrim anti-sex police lol but like... its also your fucking responsibility to make sure this shit is properly tagged omfg. i didn't finish skimming it because it was Fucking Bad but what i did read was just really horrible awful porn dialog and a barely recognizable "leon" fucking some waifish pure milky skinned delicate thin womanchild cottage core lolita manic dream girl. that is my whole other issue with x reader fics that i won't get into. you're saying x "reader" but suddenly my fat ass is slipping into size 4 jeans and a tube top? or assigning this coquettish femininity to the reader. just say "x OC". also explode. and i mean that. anyway. another rant for another day.

like everything i've ever seen of these x reader fics just feels hollow and empty of the erotic thrill they're poorly trying to emulate LOL like it vaguely reminds me of this post that dutch showed me the other day.

"no hint of erotic, just an amalgamation of current internet trends."

they literally hit the nail on the head. LIKE... IT'S SO BAD! just cheap, knock-off "eroticism".

i'm all for writing nsfw of leon. i do it all the time. love it! but jesus christ, can you at least pretend to try to make him closer to his actual personality and character??? i know he's hot but if you write about leon without knowing anything about him other than hes hot, do everyone a favor and throw your fucking computer out the window!

idk. idk. like. i'm stupid for letting this piss me off but am i as stupid as the people posting these dogshit headcanons and x reader fics? i don't think so!

as i said, the 28th was dutch and i's anniversary, our 10 year to be exact! i can't believe it's been 10 years with him.... an amazing honor and privilege. i love him so much and it's been so amazing to be a part of his journey and watch him turn into the butch he was always meant to be... my darling dutchie... i love you so!

we started our anniversary with a favorite spot, the local zoo! i really love our zoo, we have some amazing animals and very large and beautiful aviaries, insect enclosures, and reptile houses. walking around the zoo and holding hands with dutch and pointing at cute little animals and going "that's you!" or "that's us" when we see a pair cuddling will never get old.

we mostly stuck to one side of the zoo as we were on a bit of a time crunch and couldn't stay as long as we would normally like. we went to one of our favorite sections because it has the reptile house, an aviary, and insects all in one convenient little corner so we could both see our favorites.

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i had so much fun... i love the zoo!

we left around noon and made our way to the cheesecake factory... can i just say the decor of this place makes no fucking sense. the cheesecake is so good though... we got the salted caramel cheesecake and omfg.... heaven...!!!

after our delicious lunch we made our way to the nearby theater to see... nosferatu! i loved this movie. the other 6 people in the audience were dead silent after, it was so funny. very good and beutiful film and i look forward to watching it again.

we had a wonderful day, i love hanging out with my handsome butch... looking forward to the next 10 years together... and forever after that!

the next day is his anniversary present arrived! the beautiful ada 1/6 by master team! she's gorgeous!

my hatred for the soft "seamless" bodies a lot of these companies favor aside, she's gorgeous. for an unlicenced figure i think she's got an incredible likeness to her in-game model and i love her beautiful cheongsam...

she also came with her default re4r outfit and an extra head. dutch's hot toys ada he purchased last year had unfortunately been re-bodied so he purchased her original body on ebay and that left us with an extra that was now coming in handy! I dressed it up and passed her over to dutch. two figures in one was a nice surprise and that meant we both got to enjoy our adaversary ^_^!

sometime between now and march our present toys 1/6 scale wesker's are meant to be shipping out which i hope is true.. i am worried about how i'm going to rearrange my shelves when he gets here tho lol! the master team figures i have have ENORMOUS stands and it's actually kinda crazy how much room they take up. but for now... my beautiful butch/femme couple looks great on my shelf and are anxiously awaiting their third wheel <3

goals for my website:

-picture a day diary. need to find a media-heavy free code i can use and tweak lol
-game logs for all games i play this year (except games i replay a lot?)
-archive all 2024 diaries and add them to my website map
-finish leon, ada, and wesker shrines.
-make shrines for carlos, jill, medic, isabelle, pompompurin, quiet, and michael myers.
-LEARN MORE CODING!!!!

goals for myself:

-work out more :/. dutch got a walking pad for xmas so i think i can manage this
-draw a leon a day traditionally. i really miss traditional art so. i wanna get back into it.
-finish all the unplayed games in my libraries BEFORE i buy any new ones!!!
-get back into journaling of some sort, digital or physical...
-read more. been on a huge reading kick and i've loved it. hoping i can keep it up through the year

gonna try to hold myself accountable this year and get shit done... fingers crossed!!!