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April
date: 4/25/2026
time: 3:35PM
mood: tired
music: untitled - the cure
WORLD IS A FUCK
Kill Em All 1989
i am an evil humorless bitch.
410,757,864,530 UNFUNNY JOKES
date: 4/21/2026
time: 6:55PM
mood: tired
music: jigsaw falling into place - radiohead
rough day at work but what else is new. it's so weird, i love my job but at the same time, sometimes i really, really hate it. i feel like i barely have time to do the shit i actually need to do and then here comes my manager with 30 more things to add to my already overflowing plate. i know its because they know they can rely on me and i am good at my job but jesus christ. enough!!! on top of everything else i have to do and what my managers throw on me, i'm usually playing clean up for whoever the hell closed the night before and getting furiously pissed off that only me and one other coworker of mine seem to give a fuck about the health of our animals. it's so frustrating. these animals need US to take care of them, if you don't want to take care of them maybe work literally ANYWHERE fucking else!!!!!! holy fuck. like, just because you're a lazy fuck doesn't mean the animals should suffer for it.
anyway, enough about work. i dont need to be bringing it here, considering ive been having literal nightmares about it lately... dfkgjflkgjdfg
played some more tomo life yesterday and today... i know everyones saying this but damn i love this game... it's sooo fucking funny it makes me laugh so much. i made vergil yesterday and he's so cute...
i plan on making v sometime soon... i might also make nico, lady, trish, and nero. i also wanna make deacon from fallout 4, some mgs characters, and more resi characters. i'm so relieved you can have so many miis jdfhgdfjkghdfg
also played some resi 4 remake yesterday. whenever i'm sad that game always hits the spot. it's my comfort game. just walking around as leon and (cringe incoming) listening to him breathe and watching his idle animations... ugh i love him so much. its so embarrassing to admit but (cringe incoming) i find myself actually missing him like a hes an actual person if i don't play for a while... cringe........
tonight we're hanging with a friend and watching him play revelations 2 which i still say is a knock off of the last of us and a silent hill game which sucks bc claire and barry deserve a better game than whatever the fuck they were trying to do.
date: 4/19/2026
time: 4:04PM
mood: tired
music: waco, texas - ethel cain
wowee long time no update lol... decided i'm gonna try to use this more often, even if it's just a singular pic or sentence. been so busy and burnt out from work but i'm trying desperately to force myself to do something hobby related, even if i have to do it kicking and screaming. lately thats meant playing games and renovating the site. really liking where it's going but i do wish coding wasnt complete jibberish to me outside of a template. i can tear down a template until its unrecognizable from it's original state but ask me to code from scratch and i may pee my pants. i don't get it kdfkjgfdgjk. i know i just have to do it, get used to figuring out how things are laid out and just do it even if it's ugly and bad but i'm trying to enjoy my hobbies in my limited spare time... not put my head through a wall over them, ykwim?
aside from that, april has been stressful. work is just putting me through the wringer lately and it #sucks... accidentally became too important at work or whatever and now i'm paying the price. i am so tired lol. i've been playing resident evil, animal crossing, pokopia, and now tomodachi life when i'm not in the neocities trenches. jesus christ i just realized how many life sims im trying to play at once. i am in more than one trench good lord...
tomodachi life is so funny, it really makes me laugh. i've been having a fun time making resident evil characters and watching the shenanigans they get up to. i try not to get discouraged when i see the insane miis people are making online bc jfc...
this year it seems i'm on a katsu curry kick and it's been about all i'll order when we go to our fave japanese spots. i've been really bad about eating out now that i'm working again and it sucks but i love food too much to care beyond feeling a little guilty here and there. here are some curries ive had recently:
one on the right is from one of our fave spots in town. the manager knows us and always gives me a second cutlet of katsu lol they know im an #eater
hoping may is kinder to me, work is always weighing heavily on my mind, even at home. i'm hoping it calms down but with summer coming, i don't really see that happening unfortunately lol. i hope all of you are well and that life is being kind to you.
January
date: 1/19/2026
time: 12:30PM
mood: tired
music: my iron lung - radiohead
another year gone... wow 2025 felt like it was barely here. i wanna look back at my 2025 diary entry and see if i managed to complete any of the goals i set for myself LOL.
first, taking a look at goals for my website:
- i techincally did the pic a day diary, but felt like i was exposing myself too much, especially after the archiving of my site so i removed it. kinda thinking about reviving it but with pics of food/small areas in my pc room.
- i did do more game logs, but not for every game i played. mostly because i usually got so swept up in whatever game i was playing i beat it within two days and there was no longer any need for the log lol
- did archive all my diaries but removed them after archival of website bc they were too personal. 2025 diaries aren't too bad so i think i will keep them up. :)
- did not finish any of their shrines but i think i did get a lot of work done on leon's and have it going in a direction i'm liking. atp i'm kinda waiting for re9 to release before i add any more to it incase there have been dramatic changes in lore. same with ada and wesker's shrines tbh
- made shrines for none of these characters but i did make one for one not even listed. vergil son of sparda cursed my dick. what can i say, i have no excuse.
- did not learn more coding unfortunately. when i wrote that i was hoping to get to a place where i could code from scratch but i just get so overwhelmed and feel incredibly stupid so it usually ended in me throwing in the towel while in tears lmao. hopefully this year, but i have less free time than i did last year so. probably not likely. moving onto goals for myself:
- i did start working out more! i have lost. no weight. which feels awesome lol
- drew one leon and havent picked up a pencil, digital or otherwise for a good 90% of the year. rip.
- may have bought even more games without finishing any in the backlog....
- did do some digital journaling but a lot of it was just empty Bullshit so i don't think it can even count lol. hoping to do physical journaling this year but its already the 19th and i havent bought a journal... and again, less free time than i had last year so. it's not looking great.
- definitely read a fuck ton last year and plan on doing so again this year! not sure what my goals are for myself and my site are this year but i mostly just wanna be able to enjoy my hobbies with the free time i'm given without pressuring myself with too much and burning myself out of them. so i guess this years goal is to enjoy the little things and go a bit easier on myself. really want a year where i don't hate myself for 90% of it so. here's to hoping.